WHEN I AM SOMEONE’S DISAPPOINTMENT
By: Christine Wyrtzen
Look to the right and see: there is none who takes notice of me; no refuge remains to me; no one cares for my soul. I cry to you, O LORD; I say, “You are my refuge, my portion in the land of the living. Psalm 142:4-5
If I do something wrong and disappoint those close to me, perhaps I can right the wrong and make it up to them. The disappointment can be erased as I create a better memory within the relationship. But what of the times I am a disappointment? When the cause does not lie within me but within their expectation? Can I possibly heal from such unfair rejection?
- I am the wrong gender. My parents wanted a boy.
- My parents didn’t want children. I exist – therefore I disappoint.
- I have the wrong gifts. I’m a scientist but my parents want an artist.
- I am too emotional. My parents are rational and don’t understand me.
- I am an obstacle. My birth stood in the way of a parent’s career.
I reason that if the people I love and look up to reject me, then I must be the problem, right? When I am the object of another’s disappointment, it’s crippling until Jesus offers me a way of escape. The only cure is to be the object of another’s desire. God’s desire. He says, “I want you. I love you. Be mine. I accept you and celebrate you. You are unique and have a purpose in my kingdom that no one else can fulfill.” That heals the wound of disappointment. “If I find in myself desires which nothing in this world can satisfy, the only logical explanation is that I was made for another world.” C.S. Lewis
You create out of wisdom, purity, and holiness. Whatever Your hand fashions, You call ‘good’. I am Your creation. If You didn’t want me, You wouldn’t have made me. I declare today that I am fearfully and wonderfully made, loved by You. How can I be discouraged! Amen.
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